Yesterday, I was planning in my head what I will write in my blog. Unfortunately, I didn’t have time to actually write things down and now…I don’t remember what I was supposed to talk about.
Argh! It’s so frustrating especially when now I have ample time to write whatever it was supposed to be. This just sucks.
I just hope I’ll remember what it was I was supposed to write and hopefully I can write more often.
It’s rare that one is given so much opportunities or choices in life to choose from at just one moment. We’re always given so much choices every minute of everyday. But it’s rare when we want all the opportunities laid out in front of us when we only and MUST choose one. When one tries to get the best of all choices, one ends up undecided and unsure which choice does she have to take or should take.
Unfortunately, I’m going through that now.
I want to try so many things and do so many things in what lifetime I have. I try and try and people ask me do I REALLY want to do that. And I more often than not reply, "I’ll know when the time to decide comes…for now, I’ll just take the test or go to the interview or try to apply….one never knows." Haay…look where it got me now. I’m confused as hell.
Not only that but I’m also emotionally stressed and physically tired from work, the decisions I have to make and… Argh! Nakakapagod..that’s all I can say.
I took LAE because before I deciced against it in college because of the extra long years. I still want to become a lawyer and UP is the only acceptable school for me. Now, almost three years into the working world (as I call it), I have a chance to take law and become a lawyer. But..being me, I make my life more complicated by wanting to apply to Australia for a scholarship for a MA. And the decision to enroll or to push for the Australian scholarship is confusing me. I don’t seem to know which I want more.
Right now, I’m going to take IELTS and sending my applications to Australian universities. And…I still don’t know which I want more. But I know I need to decide because UP Law’s enrollment date is fast approaching.
Aside from all that I have work and other things to think abour. Where do I stand in all the decisions I have to make and things that I’m experiencing now? Which should I put first? Where do I go? Haay…
Haay…it feels so good to spend a weekend away from home. Hehe…I’m typing this in Cebu.
I went to Bohol with several high school friends. Our flight was slightly delayed in leaving Manila Domestic Airport and when we got to Supercat, we find out that the trips to Tagbilaran are all cancelled. Bad trip. So we took a chance and hoped Weesam Express wasn’t fully booked. Glad that it wasn’t but we had to wait extra two hours because the next scheduled trip was two hours later than the one we booked originally in Supercat. Haay…what a long wait especially with such a limited number of choices of food to eat and to do at the Weesam terminal.
When we got to Tagbilaran, we were sooooo happy to see a bond paper with my friend’s name on it, even though it was mispelled. Happy we were when we got on a spacious and airconditioned van that went straight to our resort. =)
We were too tired to swim after our almost whole day of travelling so we decided to settle down and get ourselves a shower and food, hehe, which of course took forever. I don’t understand why island service is really slow. Haay…I think we counted at least 30 minutes from the time we ordered to when our food arrived. Oh, and I want to see the cup that they use to measure the rice. It was like equivalent to a 1/2 cup if I used my baking measuring cup. Ewan…
We slept early that night to prepare for our day tour the next day. Woke up early to eat our free breakfast which was a bit lacking but we were looking forward to our buffet lunch at the Floating Resto in Loboc River. Which was YUMMY! Sulit ang Php260 ko with all the squid that I ate. Hehehe…. But of course, before all that we had a looooong wait. The tarsiers were so cute! I got to hold one and they are just cute when they bite the head of grasshoppers. It was like the yummiest treat for them. I have a picture of that which I hope to crop and have a close-up of to post here or on my multiply 
The trip was great but bitin. I want to go back…soon sana.. And just lounge around the beach and the resort. I don’t need to go on the tour anymore coz I’ve done that (even though we just selected 4 destinations due to pure ‘katamaran’ and lack of time).
Bohol was a blast and the people I was with were great. I want to go back and I soooo wanted more time there.
Oh, did I mention I had to think of a concept for work during the weekend. So hopefully, we get this project. Hehe…
I was just talking to my friend last night about relationships. I still remember when she and I didn’t believe in them. Now, we’re both in a relationship.
We both have this distrust in relationships, mainly romantic relationships. We’re both cynical about the thought or idea of "living happily ever after." It’s a bit too idealistic for my taste. True, I do have some faith and hope in it. Maybe it can be true…but my practical and yes, cynical side say ‘yeah right, as if.’ Maybe to some extent one can live happily ever after…to some extent.
‘Happy ever after’ comes after a lot of hardships and trials and not as easily as movies and books seem to portray it.
I have to admit I’m a scaredy cat when it comes to entrusting my heart to another and at times it’s a real trial for me. I get scared easily and I just want to run away. But then again, one doesn’t get one’s ‘happily ever after’ that way. Wish I was stronger and had more faith in relationships. The world’s too cynical as it is.
I miss writing. Don’t you? I don’t know but I think I’ve been writing since grade school. I can’t claim to be a good one but I like to write out my feelings or thoughts.
Hehe…I kept a filler for my poems when I was young. It’s around here somewhere in my room. I remember it had Fido Dido on its cover.
I also remember having my poem published in a special edition of Grader’s Gazette when I was in Grade 1. It was stupid. Just something I wrote for homework. It was about a frog for goodness’ sake. Haay…
Some stuff I wrote were published in The Blazon, a high school monthly magazine. Although, they were mostly prayers, a poem or two maybe and maybe a couple of my views or opinions about something. I don’t really keep track.
I bet everyone has one time or another tried to keep a diary or a journal. I have…on and off since grade school. But I really found journal writing helpful in high school. What started out as a journel for my European tour ended up as a notebook full of my favorite songs, stories, poems, and quotes. Interjected in between are my thoughts and feelings of course.
Now, I’m on my third notebook/journal since then. Haha…that’s a lot some would say especially with my very small handwriting which I believe would discourage anyone who wants to peek and read what I write.
I don’t really write everyday or every week for that matter…well sometimes I skip a month or two or three before I write another entry. There are times though that I can write several entries in several consecutive days or just in a day. True, I usually write when I’m contemplating on something or just plain ranting. But all in all, writing relaxes me. And I think it contributes to my saneness. hehehe…
Blogs are cool. Although I find that writing them and having them available online kinda makes me feel a bit uncomfortable. I can’t write certain words or names for fear that these people or other people will get to read them.
I believe journals can also be windows to one’s soul. So much is revealed in what one writes and how one writes something…words, content, sentence constriction, etc. clues other people as to who you are and how you think.
I’d like to keep some things private. Really private that I’m the only one who knows how sensitive, mean or weird I really am.
I miss writing. I wish I really had more time in between work, church, activities, and relaxation to do so. It helps me clarify my thoughts and feelings and just overall helps me to de-stress. 
I didn’t want to write this but I need to release some stress. Why are some bosses such asses? And why can’t others simply follow through? Haay…is it so hard to be nice and not be primadonnas and such? I work and work and work. Yeah, maybe I do let things slide a little every once in a while. And I admit that it can get difficult to prioritize but I think that happens to everyone.
I do have a life. Work is not life. It does pay the bills and makes life more comfortable. But IT IS NOT THE END ALL AND BE ALL of life. I’m sorry. I may be a workaholic at times and I think about work even outside the office but I DO NOT WANT IT TO BE MY LIFE. I’d rather be poor and relaxed and happy with family and friends rather than work my ass off for measly pay or money that’s not gonna make me happy in the end at all.
I like family, friends, life and love over work any day. I can’t make work my first or my second priority in life. Life is about accepting blessings and using them to the fullest. I don’t think we were given life to be stressed at all. There’s so much more out there than work.
It’s one of those days or ahould I say weeks. I can’t wait til it all ends…the day and the week. I can’t seem to stop wanting time to move faster. It’s just so sloooooooowww….
It’s been a sorta hectic week. Once I’m done with one task another pops out. At times, the tasks to be done come all at the same time. I’ve gone through most of this week in a daze. Surprisingly I accomplished the tasks even when I can’t seem to really remember how I did it. Scary. Hahaha! That’s okay. It happens to me at times.
I just really want the day and the week to end so I can relax and have fun. When I get home I’m tired and I want to sleep at a really early time. A lot earlier than I usually sleep. Haay… And my moods are weird.
Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! I just want it to end soon.
Haha…I know Bataan was almost two weeks ago but I feel like writing something in my blog. The weekend in Bataan is a good as any.
Bataan was fun and I wish we could have stayed longer so I could have gone to the beach more and the people who slept a lot could have been awake more. We all should have gone to the beach more and explored whatever there was to explore.
We all played poker, pusoy dos, tong-its, and watched TV. Oh, and ate all the inihaw na baboy, hotdogs, bacon, and eggs we could. All of these activities we could have done back here in Manila. Hehe…Oh well..
I did enjoy poker coz I won a lot. Swerte lang.
I got to know more the people who were there and met a new friend, Michink’s and Yumi’s sister Grace, who by the way is a good pusoy dos player…if only we can get her to play poker. Hehehe….
All in all, it was a great outing which almost didn’t push through. Thanks Erwin!!! Thanks to everyone who made the outing possible. Benjie, Herbie, Carlos, Gelo the driver, BJ, etc. Thanks!!!!
Blog..Blog..Blog..Hehe…Nothing really to write. I’m done with the PREX Youth weekend! Yey!!!
I got to go to Baguio last weekend with PREX peeps. It was tiring but fun. I had so little sleep that I ended up sleeping on Saturday night when everyone was up and telling stories. I took a nap then I just couldn’t get up. Hehe… It was fun though.
That trip though has made me so sleepy this whole week. Haay…
Oh well…hopefully next week is better.
A new year always brings hope to people. Hope that everything will be better and there will be a lot of blessings. For me, it’s the same. I hope this new year brings better opportunities, better finances, new friends and a lot of new experiences, good or bad they may be.
I feel pretty good about this year. I feel like it’ll bring me a lot of new learnings and maybe some re-learning of old lessons and such. Haha…I was a bum when the new year started but I’m not worried that I’ll run out of money…I’m not saying I have a lot saved up. Actually, I don’t really have that much saved up and I predict that the money I do have will run out before February ends.
Oh well, money is the least of my worries. Finding a job is not foremost in my mind. All I’m doing is working out and just checking emails and websites I’m curious about. I do kinda feel I’m unproductive but someone did say that I deserve the break and the rest. And yeah, I do agree with that statement. I pretty much sleep til 10-130 AM and go online for an hour or so then go to the gym in the afternoon. After I go home, I just watch TV and/or all the DVDs I haven’t seen and talk on the phone. Then I read a book or a magazine and sleep late. It’s all pretty routine except on the weekends or when I have meetings. Hehe…and I don’t feel guilty about it…well, maybe just a little.
I am making an effort to do some productive stuff like get all my papers in order like my diploma, which by the way has the wrong course written on it. How I wish I was a graduate of BA Journalism! And other stuff… I will look into learning new software and read up on things I’m interested in and books I normally wouldn’t read. I’m really enjoying the fact that I have time to read books and watch DVDs and the Koreanovelas I haven’t seen.
Well, I feel pretty good about this year. What is it about a new year that has people feeling optimistic? I do wonder.
